Then I had kids.
I get it. Most things seem as if they happened yesterday because every day and everything that happened on those days, have melted into a glop of memories in my head. But more so, things seem as if they happened yesterday because I WISH they did. I WISH I could go back.
I wish I could go back to the time when this little guy was "Toleman" and he wanted me to video tape his every move. ("Turn around me, mom. Turn around me.") I wish I could snuggle with him every night and fall asleep to Disney movies. I wish I could color, read, sing, play, skip, and dance with him, just one more time.
But I can't.
I know that. I still have my wishes, but, like him, they have changed. I hope he grows up to live his dreams. I hope he finds the good in everyone he meets. I hope he meets a girl who's as sweet and kind as he is. And someday, I hope he snuggles with his kids and falls asleep to The Lion King.
Happy Birthday Bub.
Love,
Mom
I am totally teary eyed as I read this. It is crazy to think that Anderson is going to grow up so fast right before my eyes and I can't help but think that I am not living in the moment as much as a should or want to. I love sweet kole and hope that Anderson is as sweet and loving and kind as he is:)
ReplyDeleteLove every minute of it because they do grow up fast - but Paige I think you are doing an awesome job! Anderson is adorable and happy! Perfect!
DeleteOh, sweet Kole. One of the nicest, most sincere boys his age I've ever met. I loved this post:)
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