Moxley's Mayhem

It's our own little crazy world; where we rule the mayhem that happens every day. We may not be perfect, we may not be rich, we may not even be technically sane, but we have each other and that's all that matters.

Saturday, June 9, 2012

The bluest eyes, the biggest heart

I used to hate reading stories that started, "It seemed like just yesterday when..." I hated reading them because I thought it was stupid, how could something that happened ten, twenty, fifty years ago seem as if they happened yesterday.

Then I had kids.

I get it.  Most things seem as if they happened yesterday because every day and everything that happened on those days, have melted into a glop of memories in my head.  But more so, things seem as if they happened yesterday because I WISH they did.  I WISH I could go back.

I wish I could go back to the time when this little guy was "Toleman" and he wanted me to video tape his every move.  ("Turn around me, mom.  Turn around me.") I wish I could snuggle with him every night and fall asleep to Disney movies.  I wish I could color, read, sing, play, skip, and dance with him, just one more time.  

But I can't.

I know that.  I still have my wishes, but, like him, they have changed.  I hope he grows up to live his dreams.  I hope he finds the good in everyone he meets.  I hope he meets a girl who's as sweet and kind as he is.  And someday, I hope he snuggles with his kids and falls asleep to The Lion King.   

Happy Birthday Bub.



  1. I am totally teary eyed as I read this. It is crazy to think that Anderson is going to grow up so fast right before my eyes and I can't help but think that I am not living in the moment as much as a should or want to. I love sweet kole and hope that Anderson is as sweet and loving and kind as he is:)

    1. Love every minute of it because they do grow up fast - but Paige I think you are doing an awesome job! Anderson is adorable and happy! Perfect!

  2. Oh, sweet Kole. One of the nicest, most sincere boys his age I've ever met. I loved this post:)